I know I Know IKNOW!!!!
I have disappeared.
Well I am trying to come back now.
Although the move has been good in many ways....we have seen so many wonderful things. The museum of Civilization. The Harness races. The ice and snow sculptures. Build-a-Bear. And on and on.
I have been slowly running out of emotional energy and have fallen into sadness.
I miss my life and I don't really know how to get into the new one yet.
Until now all my energy has been going into making the house feel like a home and keeping the kids happy. I think I just got tired and I feel like all the juice has been squeezed out of me.
I know from experience that it takes time to build a social structure and we have made a good start.
I know all the truths about what God will do for us and I truely do trust Him to do it.
I know it has gone well but I miss the life I had.
I think I have to just mourn it.
Maybe it will be easier if I do.
I miss all the people that know me for good or for bad.
I miss the comfortable feeling of knowing I am accepted and useful at some level.
And I miss having people to laugh alot with.
I have been suprised and dissapointed by my reaction to this transition. I guess I thought I would just be able to sail past the sad part of the move and run right into the happy new life that is waiting.
Anyways.....
I just thought I should post something so that people know that I am still alive and I am sorry that I have disappeared. I tend to want to fix all my problems alone and then resurface when everything is great again.
But it might take me too long.
So maybe I will be able to work through the process faster if I share it abit.