What do you think of when you think of Ottawa?

politicians? The buildings? Rideau Canal ? Well in the future maybe you will think of me. We have decided to take a job there and I am trying to deal with it. It is a good opportunity. Something we must do but it will be difficult. So when you think of Ottawa think of me and say a prayer. I think I am going to need it.

(able)

TRUST(able)
LOVE(able)
WANT(able)
CHERISH(able)
LISTEN(able)
CARE(able)
FIND(able)
HOLD(able)
LEARN(able)
KNOW(able)
MANAGE(able)
BEND(able)
FORGIVE(able)
WORTHY
I am trustable and able to trust
I am loveable and able to love
I am wantable and able to want
I am cherishable and able to cherish
I am listenable and able to listen
I am careable and able to care
I am findable and able to find
I am holdable and able to hold
I am learnable and able to learn
I am knowable and able to know
I am manageable and able to manage
I am bendable and able to bend
I am forgiveable and able to forgive
I am WORTHY of all these things and more.
kissable, believable, liveable, likeable,

PLANTS

I have always loved plants. I have always done a good job at keeping them alive. There are those people who kill all plants they touch. I have never been one of 'those' people....That is until now. In the last few months I have managed to kill almost every plant in my house. Even the spider plant and it was really big and nice. The African violet my dad grew for me, the avocado plant I grew from a seed....And a few other nameless lovely plants. I feel really bad about it.
It is interesting how things slowly get out of hand and you never notice it until one day all the plants are dead. I guess I was neglecting them. It just isn't like me. That made me think about all the other things I have been neglecting and why. I guess life got stressful and it kinda crept up on me. In the last 6 months I have killed all my plants, gain unwanted weight, the basement is a disaster (always a sign of trouble in my life) I haven't been cooking or baking very much and lately I have been cutting my hair(always a sign of discontent). If you have been looking at my blog you will notice that I haven't been inspired for a long time. To me these are all signs of death in my life.
Life has been overwhelming lately with all the changes we have been going through and all the stress that brings about. I haven't been handling it very well but I didn't realize it till all the plants died and I got fat and I can't keep the basement organized. I know this might all sound kinda silly but all these little things together tell me things about myself. You probably have similar triggers. Maybe you never thought about it. I never did until all the plants died. So i am paying attention now. Trying to stop killing things and getting my act together. It's the little things.

WINE

Stephan has been making wine....
He loves it.




I think we have about 300 potential bottles fermenting right now.

Reds, whites what ever you like. So in a few months we should have a big party....are you comming over?